| Ada or Ardor: A Family Chronicle Part 1, Chapter 38 ( view annotations) |
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| In mid-July Uncle Dan took Lucette to Kaluga where she was | |
| to stay, with Belle and French, for five days. The Lyaskan | |
| Ballet and a German circus were in town, and no child would | |
| want to miss the schoolgirls’ field-hockey and swimming | |
| 236.05 | matches which old Dan, a child at heart, attended religiously at |
| that time of the year; moreover she had to undergo a series of | |
| "tests" at the Tarus Hospital to settle what caused her weight | |
| and temperature to fluctuate so abnormally despite her eating | |
| so heartily and feeling so well. | |
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| with her, he also expected to bring a Kaluga lawyer to Ardis | |
| where Demon was to come too, an unusual occurrence. The | |
| business to be discussed was the sale of some "blue" (peat-bog) | |
| land which belonged to both cousins and which both, for dif- | |
| 236.15 | ferent reasons, were anxious to get rid of. As usually happened |
| with Dan’s most carefully worked-out plans, something mis- | |
| fired, the lawyer could not promise to come till late in the | |
| evening, and just before Demon arrived, his cousin aerogrammed | |
| a message asking Marina to "dine Demon" without waiting for | |
| 236.20 | Dan and Miller. |
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| nasty surprise) greatly pleased Van. He had seen little of his | |
| father that year. He loved him with light-hearted devotion, had | |
| worshipped him in boyhood, and respected him staunchly now | |
| 237.05 | in his tolerant but better informed youth. Still later a tinge of |
| repulsion (the same repulsion he felt in regard to his own im- | |
| morality) became admixed to the love and the esteem; but, on | |
| the other hand, the older he grew the more firmly he felt that | |
| he would give his life for his father, at a moment’s notice, with | |
| 237.10 | pride and pleasure, in any circumstance imaginable. When |
| Marina, in the late Eighteen-Nineties, in her miserable dotage, | |
| used to ramble on, with embarrassing and disgusting details, | |
| about dead Demon’s "crimes," he felt pity for him and her, but | |
| his indifference to Marina and his adoration for his father re- | |
| 237.15 | mained unchanged—to endure thus even now, in the chrono- |
| logically hardly believable Nineteen-Sixties. No accursed gen- | |
| eralizer, with a half-penny mind and dry-fig heart, would be | |
| able to explain (and this is my sweetest revenge for all the | |
| detractions my lifework has met with) the individual vagaries | |
| 237.20 | evolved in those and similar matters. No art and no genius would |
| exist without such vagaries, and this is a final pronouncement, | |
| damning all clowns and clods, | |
| 1884 (the day Van’s first summer stay there had been suggested, | |
| 237.25 | planned, promised). Twice in the summer of 1885 (while Van |
| was climbing mountains in the Western states, and the Veen | |
| girls were in Europe). A dinner in 1886, in June or July (where | |
| was Van?). In 1887 for a few days in May (Ada was botanizing | |
| with a German woman in Estotia or California. Van was whor- | |
| 237.30 | ing in Chose). |
| had long dallied with Ada in the comfortable nursery, and was | |
| now hanging from the wrong window, which did not give a | |
| clear view of the drive, when he heard the rich purr of his |
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| father’s motorcar. He dashed downstairs—the speed of his de- | |
| scent causing the heat of the banisters to burn the palm of his | |
| hand in a merry way remindful of similar occasions in his boy- | |
| hood. There was nobody in the hall. Demon had entered the | |
| 238.05 | house from a side gallery and was now settled in the sun-dusted |
| music room, wiping his monocle with a special zamshinka | |
| ("shammy") as he awaited his "prebrandial" brandy (an ancient | |
| quip). His hair was dyed a raven black, his teeth were hound- | |
| white. His smooth glossy brown face with its trimly clipped | |
| 238.10 | black mustache and humid dark eyes beamed at his son, ex- |
| pressing the radiant love which Van reciprocated, and which | |
| both vainly tried to camouflage with habitual pleasantry. | |
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| there he comes through the snow. Always gloves, no overcoat | |
| ever. Want to go to the "bathroom," Father? My land, sweet | |
| land. | |
| 238.20 | twinkle. |
| knowledging the passage of time: he, too, remembered every | |
| detail of those father-and-son dinners at Riverlane, the imme- | |
| diate dutiful offer of the W.C., the hearty masters, the ignoble | |
| 238.25 | meal, creamed hash, God save America, embarrassed sons, vulgar |
| fathers, titled Britisher and Greek grandee matching yachts, and | |
| yacs, and yoickfests in the Bahamudas. May I transfer incon- | |
| spicuously this delicious pink-frosted synthesis from my plate | |
| to yours, son? "You don’t like it, Dad!" (acting horribly hurt). | |
| 238.30 | God save their poor little American tastebuds. |
| Russian slang of the meanest grade for a cute kameristochka). | |
| "And how is everything, my dear boy? I saw you last the day |
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| you returned from Chose. We waste life in separations! We | |
| are the fools of fate! Oh let’s spend a month together in Paris | |
| or London before the Michaelmas term!" | |
| 239.05 | lace-frilled handkerchief that lodged in the heart pocket of his |
| dinner jacket. His tear glands were facile in action when no | |
| real sorrow made him control himself. | |
| fresh oeillet in your lapel eye. I suppose you have not been | |
| 239.10 | much in Manhattan lately—where did you get its last syllable?" |
| Demon, needlessly and unwillingly recollecting (with that spe- | |
| cial concussion of instant detail that also plagued his children) | |
| 239.15 | a violet-and-black-striped fish in a bowl, a similarly striped |
| couch, the subtropical sun bringing out the veins of an onyx | |
| ashtray astray on the stone floor, a batch of old, orange-juice- | |
| stained Povesa (playboy) magazines, the jewels he had brought, | |
| the phonograph singing in a dreamy girl’s voice "Petit nègre, au | |
| 239.20 | champ qui fleuronne," and the admirable abdomen of a very |
| expensive, and very faithless and altogether adorable young | |
| Créole. | |
| 239.25 | and more confused every year. Let us speak of plainer things. |
| Where are the drinks? They were promised me by a passing | |
| angel." | |
| 239.30 | pantryward and caused the old-fashioned, bronze-framed little |
| aquarium, with its lone convict cichlid, to bubble antiphonally | |
| in a corner of the music room (an eerie, perhaps self-aerating | |
| reaction, which only Kim Beauharnais, the kitchen boy, under- | |
| stood). "Should he ring her up after dinner," wondered Demon. |
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| What time would it be there? Not much use, bad for the heart. | |
| the fat arm of his father’s chair. "Uncle Dan will be here with | |
| the lawyer and Lucette only after dinner." | |
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| dîner à quatre." | |
| fellow—and I don’t have to exaggerate compliments as some do | |
| 240.10 | in regard to an aging man with shoe-shined hair. Your dinner |
| jacket is very nice—or, rather, it’s very nice recognizing one’s | |
| old tailor in one’s son’s clothes—like catching oneself repeating | |
| an ancestral mannerism—for example, this (wagging his left | |
| forefinger three times at the height of his temple), which my | |
| 240.15 | mother did in casual, pacific denial; that gene missed you, but |
| I’ve seen it in my hairdresser’s looking-glass when refusing to | |
| have him put Crêmlin on my bald spot; and you know who | |
| had it too—my aunt Kitty, who married the banker Bolenski | |
| after divorcing that dreadful old wencher Lyovka Tolstoy, the | |
| 240.20 | writer." |
| highly of Russian novelists. As usual, Van considered it fit to | |
| make a corrective comment: | |
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| ding another sweet-water tear. He pressed to his cheek Van’s | |
| strong shapely hand. Van kissed his father’s hairy fist which | |
| was already holding a not yet visible glass of liquor. Despite | |
| the manly impact of their Irishness, all Veens who had Russian | |
| 240.30 | blood revealed much tenderness in ritual overflows of affection |
| while remaining somewhat inept in its verbal expression. | |
| ment is that of a carpenter’s. Show me your other hand. Good | |
| gracious" (muttering:) "Hump of Venus disfigured, Line of |
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| Life scarred but monstrously long ..." (switching to a gipsy | |
| chant:) "You’ll live to reach Terra, and come back a wiser and | |
| merrier man" (reverting to his ordinary voice:) "What puzzles | |
| me as a palmist is the strange condition of the Sister of your Life. | |
| 241.05 | And the roughness!" |
| you like Ardis Hall?" | |
| 241.10 | Dore. I would gladly spend all my scarred and strange life here. |
| But that’s a hopeless fancy." | |
| but Dan is greedy, and my affairs are such that I can satisfy | |
| great greed. When I was your age I thought that the sweetest | |
| 241.15 | word in the language rhymes with 'billiard,' and now I know |
| I was right. If you’re really keen, son, on having this property, | |
| I might try to buy it. I can exert a certain pressure upon my | |
| Marina. She sighs like a hassock when you sit upon her, so to | |
| speak. Damn it, the servants here are not Mercuries. Pull that | |
| 241.20 | cord again. Yes, maybe Dan could be made to sell." |
| slang phrase he had learned from his tender young nurse, Ruby, | |
| who was born in the Mississippi region where most magistrates, | |
| public benefactors, high priests of various so-called "denomina- | |
| 241.25 | tions," and other honorable and generous men, had the dark or |
| darkish skin of their West-African ancestors, who had been | |
| the first navigators to reach the Gulf of Mexico. | |
| a couple of millions minus what Cousin Dan owes me, minus | |
| 241.30 | also the Ladore pastures, which are utterly mucked up and |
| should be got rid of gradually, if the local squires don’t blow | |
| up that new kerosene distillery, the stïd i sram (shame) of our | |
| county. I am not particularly fond of Ardis, but I have nothing | |
| against it, though I detest its environs. Ladore Town has become |
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| very honky-tonky, and the gaming is not what it used to be. | |
| You have all sorts of rather odd neighbors. Poor Lord Erminin | |
| is practically insane. At the races, the other day, I was talking | |
| to a woman I preyed upon years ago, oh long before Moses de | |
| 242.05 | Vere cuckolded her husband in my absence and shot him dead |
| in my presence—an epigram you’ve heard before, no doubt | |
| from these very lips—" | |
| 242.10 | titiousness—Well, she tells me her boy and Ada see a lot of |
| each other, et cetera. Is that true?" | |
| usual parties. Both like horses, and races, but that’s all. There is | |
| no et cetera, that’s out of the question." | |
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| Prascovie de Prey has the worst fault of a snob: overstatement. | |
| Bonsoir, Bouteillan. You look as ruddy as your native vine— | |
| but we are not getting any younger, as the amerlocks say, and | |
| that pretty messenger of mine must have been waylaid by some | |
| 242.20 | younger and more fortunate suitor." |
| ways feared that his father’s recondite jests might offend a | |
| menial—while sinning himself by being sometimes too curt. | |
| 242.25 | knew his former master too well to be bothered by gentlemanly |
| humor. His hand still tingled nicely from slapping Blanche’s | |
| compact young bottom for having garbled Mr. Veen’s simple | |
| request and broken a flower vase. After placing his tray on a | |
| low table he retreated a few steps, his fingers remaining curved | |
| 242.30 | in the tray-carrying position, and only then acknowledged |
| Demon’s welcome with a fond bow. Was Monsieur’s health | |
| always good? Indeed it was. | |
| d’Estoc for dinner"; and when the butler, having removed en |
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| passant a crumpled little handkerchief from the piano top, had | |
| left the room with another salute: "How do you get along | |
| with Ada? She’s what—almost sixteen now? Very musical | |
| and romantic?" | |
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| pared his answer to a question he had expected to come in one | |
| form or another). "We have really more things in common | |
| than, for instance, ordinary lovers or cousins or siblings. I | |
| mean, we are really inseparable. We read a lot, she is spectacu- | |
| 243.10 | larly self-educated, thanks to her granddad’s library. She knows |
| the names of all the flowers and finches in the neighborhood. | |
| She is altogether a very amusing girl." | |
| stopped a number of times before in the course of the last years. | |
| 243.15 | Some day it would have to be said, but this was not the right |
| moment. He inserted his monocle and examined the bottles: | |
| "By the way, son, do you crave any of these aperitifs? My | |
| father allowed me Lilletovka and that Illinois Brat—awful bilge, | |
| antranou svadi, as Marina would say. I suspect your uncle has | |
| 243.20 | a cache behind the solanders in his study and keeps there a finer |
| whisky than this usque ad Russkum. Well, let us have the co- | |
| gnac, as planned, unless you are a filius aquae?" | |
| 243.25 | later on. No, I’m certainly no T-totaler, and besides the Ardis |
| tap water is not recommended!" | |
| slow swallow, "that her husband should stop swilling tittery, | |
| and stick to French and Califrench wines—after that little | |
| 243.30 | stroke he had. I met him in town recently, near Mad Avenue, |
| saw him walking toward me quite normally, but then as he | |
| caught sight of me, a block away, the clockwork began slowing | |
| down and he stopped—oh, helplessly!—before he reached me. | |
| That’s hardly normal. Okay. Let our sweethearts never meet, |
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| as we used to say, up at Chose. Only Yukonians think cognac | |
| is bad for the liver, because they have nothing but vodka. Well, | |
| I’m glad you get along so well with Ada. That’s fine. A moment | |
| ago, in that gallery, I ran into a remarkably pretty soubrette. | |
| 244.05 | She never once raised her lashes and answered in French when |
| I—Please, my boy, move that screen a little, that’s right, the | |
| stab of a sunset, especially from under a thunderhead, is not for | |
| my poor eyes. Or poor ventricles. Do you like the type, Van— | |
| the bowed little head, the bare neck, the high heels, the trot, | |
| 244.10 | the wiggle, you do, don’t you?" |
| Show the sign? Better not. Invent.) | |
| 244.15 | my tango-partner whom you saw me dance with when you flew |
| over for that last show—remember?" | |
| 244.20 | which only the ineptitude of a kindred conjecture had crowded |
| out of Marina’s mind, granted it could have entered by some | |
| back door; for ineptitude is always synonymous with multitude, | |
| and nothing is fuller than an empty mind. | |
| 244.25 | said for a restful summer in the country ..." |
| liquor intake," remarked Demon, pouring himself a fourth shal- | |
| low. "On the other hand," he went on, nursing the thin- | |
| 244.30 | stemmed, gold-rimmed cup, "open-air life may be pretty bleak |
| without a summer romance, and not many decent girls haunt | |
| the neighborhood, I agree. There was that lovely Erminin girl, | |
| une petite juive très aristocratique, but I understand she’s en- | |
| gaged. By the way, the de Prey woman tells me her son has |
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| enlisted and will soon be taking part in that deplorable business | |
| abroad which our country should have ignored. I wonder if he | |
| leaves any rivals behind?" | |
| 245.05 | lady. She has no beaux—except me, ça va seins durs. Now who, |
| who, who, Dad, who said that for 'sans dire'?" | |
| his French wife. Well, that’s fine news about Ada. She likes | |
| horses, you say?" | |
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| and The Cherry Orchard." | |
| yes, here I come. Beaming! | |
| 245.15 | back again, enveloping Ada with one arm, holding his glass |
| in the other hand, kissing the girl in the neck, in the hair, bur- | |
| rowing in her sweetness with more than an uncle’s fervor. | |
| "Gosh," she exclaimed (with an outbreak of nursery slang that | |
| affected Van with even more umilenie, attendrissement, melting | |
| 245.20 | ravishment, than his father seemed to experience). "How lovely |
| to see you! Clawing your way through the clouds! Swooping | |
| down on Tamara’s castle!" | |
| 245.25 | when you wore a raincoat with a white and black scarf and |
| simply reeked of some arsenic stuff after seeing your dentist. | |
| Dr. Pearlman has married his receptionist, you’ll be glad to | |
| know. Now to business, my darling. I accept your dress" (the | |
| sleeveless black sheath), "I tolerate your romantic hairdo, I don’t | |
| 245.30 | care much for your pumps na bosu nogu (on bare feet), your |
| Beau Masque perfume—passe encore, but, my precious, I abhor | |
| and reject your livid lipstick. It may be the fashion in good old | |
| Ladore. It is not done in Man or London." | |
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| rubbed her lips with a tiny handkerchief produced from her | |
| bosom. | |
| And now I’ll show what a diviner I am: your dream is to be a | |
| 246.05 | concert pianist!" |
| She can’t play a note!" | |
| the mother of deduction. However, there is nothing improper | |
| 246.10 | about a hanky dumped on a Bechstein. You don’t have, my love, |
| to blush so warmly. Let me quote for comic relief | |
| 246.15 | "The gobble enfant is genuine, but the elephant is mine." |
| has one very fetching little piece which Ada de Grandfief here | |
| has twisted into English several times, more or less successfully." | |
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| scooped up a handful of salted almonds. | |
| nut from her cupped hand. | |
| 246.25 | of family reunions, the never-entangling marionette strings— |
| all this is easier described than imagined. | |
| by very great and inhuman artists, but only close relatives can | |
| be forgiven for paraphrasing illustrious poems. Let me preface | |
| 246.30 | the effort of a cousin—anybody’s cousin—by a snatch of |
| Pushkin, for the sake of rhyme—" | |
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| my paraphrase, is like the corruption of 'snakeroot' into 'snagrel' | |
| —all that remains of a delicate little birthwort." | |
| and those of my little friends." | |
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| an indecent allusion, since the unfortunate plant used to be | |
| considered by the ancient inhabitants of the Ladore region not | |
| so much as a remedy for the bite of a reptile, as the token of a | |
| very young woman’s easy delivery; but no matter). "By chance | |
| 247.10 | preserved has been the poem. In fact, I have it. Here it is: Leur |
| chute est lente and one can know ‘em . . ." | |
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| "Grand stuff!" | |
| he recited: | |
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| trouvaille, girl." He pulled the girl to him, she landing on the | |
| arm of his Klubsessel, and he glued himself with thick moist | |
| lips to her hot red ear through the rich black strands. Van felt | |
| a shiver of delight. | |
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| in excellent chiaroscuro circumstances, wearing a spangled dress, |
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| her face in the soft focus sought by ripe stars, holding out both | |
| arms and followed by Jones, who carried two flambeaux and | |
| kept trying to keep within the limits of decorum the odd little | |
| go-away kicks he was aiming backwards at a brown flurry in | |
| 248.05 | the shadows. |
| patted her hand as he joined her on a settee. | |
| entwined flambeaux on the low-boy with the gleaming drinks | |
| 248.10 | and was about to bring over its fellow to the spot where Demon |
| and Marina were winding up affable preliminaries but was | |
| quickly motioned by Marina to a pedestal near the striped fish. | |
| Puffing, he drew the curtains, for nothing but picturesque ruins | |
| remained of the day. Jones was new, very efficient, solemn and | |
| 248.15 | slow, and one had to get used gradually to his ways and wheeze. |
| Years later he rendered me a service that I will never forget. | |
| Demon confided to his former mistress without bothering to | |
| discover whether the subject of his praise could hear him (she | |
| 248.20 | did) from the other end of the room where she was helping Van |
| to corner the dog—and showing much too much leg in the | |
| process. Our old friend, being quite as excited as the rest of the | |
| reunited family, had scampered in after Marina with an old | |
| miniver-furred slipper in his merry mouth. The slipper belonged | |
| 248.25 | to Blanche, who had been told to whisk Dack to her room but, |
| as usual, had not incarcerated him properly. Both children | |
| experienced a chill of déjà-vu (a twofold déjà-vu, in fact, when | |
| contemplated in artistic retrospect). | |
| 248.30 | devant les gens," said deeply flattered Marina (sounding the |
| final "s" as her granddams had done); and when the slow fish- | |
| mouthed footman had gone carrying away, supine, high-chested | |
| Dack and his poor plaything, she continued: "Really, in com- |
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| parison to the local girls, to Grace Erminin, for example, or | |
| Cordula de Prey, Ada is a Turgenevian maiden or even a Jane | |
| Austen miss." | |
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| Demon. "I never can understand their games and little secrets. | |
| Mlle Larivière, however, has written a wonderful screenplay | |
| about mysterious children doing strange things in old parks— | |
| 249.10 | but don’t let her start talking of her literary successes tonight, |
| that would be fatal." | |
| is not at his best after eight P.M., summertime, you know. By | |
| the way, how’s Lucette?" | |
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| by Bouteillan in the grand manner, and Demon offered kala- | |
| chikom (in the form of a Russian crescent loaf) his arm to | |
| Marina. Van, who in his father’s presence was prone to lapse | |
| into a rather dismal sort of playfulness, proposed taking Ada in, | |
| 249.20 | but she slapped his wrist away with a sisterly sans-gêne, of |
| which Fanny Price might not have approved. | |
| Marina (and G. A. Vronsky, during their brief romance) had | |
| dubbed, for unknown reasons, "Grib," placed an onyx ashtray | |
| 249.25 | at the head of the table for Demon, who liked to smoke between |
| courses—a puff of Russian ancestry. A side table supported, also | |
| in the Russian fashion, a collection of red, black, gray, beige | |
| hors-d’oeuvres, with the serviette caviar (salfetochnaya ikra) | |
| separated from the pot of Graybead (ikra svezhaya) by the | |
| 249.30 | succulent pomp of preserved boletes, "white," and "subbetu- |
| line," while the pink of smoked salmon vied with the incarnadine | |
| of Westphalian ham. The variously flavored vodochki glittered, | |
| on a separate tray. The French cuisine had contributed its |
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| chaudfroids and foie gras. A window was open, and the crickets | |
| were stridulating at an ominous speed in the black motionless | |
| foliage. | |
| 250.05 | delicious dinner, and although the talk consisted mainly of |
| family quips and bright banalities, that reunion was to remain | |
| suspended in one’s memory as a strangely significant, not wholly | |
| pleasant, experience. One treasured it in the same way as when | |
| falling in love with a picture in a pinacoteca or remembering a | |
| 250.10 | dream style, the dream detail, the meaningful richness of color |
| and contour in an otherwise meaningless vision. It should be | |
| observed that nobody, not even the reader, not even Bouteillan | |
| (who crumbled, alas, a precious cork), was at his or her best at | |
| that particular party. A faint element of farce and falsity flawed | |
| 250.15 | it, preventing an angel—if angels could visit Ardis—from being |
| completely at ease; and yet it was a marvelous show which no | |
| artist would have wanted to miss. | |
| impetuous moths among which Ada, with a ghost pointing them | |
| 250.20 | out to her, could not help recognizing many old "flutterfriends." |
| Pale intruders, anxious only to spread out their delicate wings | |
| on some lustrous surface; ceiling-bumpers in guildman furs; | |
| thick-set rake-hells with bushy antennae; and party-crashing | |
| hawkmoths with red black-belted bellies, sailed or shot, silent | |
| 250.25 | or humming, into the dining room out of the black hot humid |
| night. | |
| Ladore county, let us not forget, let us never forget, with a | |
| family of four seated around an oval dinner table, bright with | |
| 250.30 | flowers and crystal—not a scene in a play, as might have seemed |
| — nay, must have seemed—to a spectator (with a camera or a | |
| program) placed in the velvet pit of the garden. Sixteen years | |
| had elapsed from the end of Marina’s three-year affair with | |
| Demon. Intermissions of various length—a break of two months |
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| in the spring of 1870, another, of almost four, in the middle of | |
| 1871—had at the time only increased the tenderness and the | |
| torture. Her singularly coarsened features, her attire, that se- | |
| quin-spangled dress, the glittering net over her strawberry- | |
| 251.05 | blond dyed hair, her red sunburnt chest and melodramatic |
| make-up, with too much ochre and maroon in it, did not even | |
| vaguely remind the man, who had loved her more keenly than | |
| any other woman in his philanderings, of the dash, the glamour, | |
| the lyricism of Marina Durmanov’s beauty. It aggrieved him— | |
| 251.10 | that complete collapse of the past, the dispersal of its itinerant |
| court and music-makers, the logical impossibility to relate the | |
| dubious reality of the present to the unquestionable one of re- | |
| membrance. Even these hors-d’oeuvres on the zakusochnïy stol | |
| of Ardis Manor and its painted dining room did not link up with | |
| 251.15 | their petits soupers, although, God knows, the triple staple to |
| start with was always much the same—pickled young boletes | |
| in their tight-fitting glossy fawn helmets, the gray beads of fresh | |
| caviar, the goose liver paste, pique-aced with Perigord | |
| truffles. | |
| 251.20 | |
| with elastic samlet, gulped down a last pony of vodka and took | |
| his place at the table with Marina facing him across its oblong | |
| length, beyond the great bronze bowl with carved-looking | |
| Calville apples and elongated Persty grapes. The alcohol his | |
| 251.25 | vigorous system had already imbibed was instrumental, as usual, |
| in reopening what he gallicistically called condemned doors, | |
| and now as he gaped involuntarily as all men do while spread- | |
| ing a napkin, he considered Marina’s pretentious ciel-étoilé hair- | |
| dress and tried to realize (in the rare full sense of the word), | |
| 251.30 | tried to possess the reality of a fact by forcing it into the |
| sensuous center, that here was a woman whom he had intoler- | |
| ably loved, who had loved him hysterically and skittishly, who | |
| insisted they make love on rugs and cushions laid on the floor | |
| ("as respectable people do in the Tigris-Euphrates valley"), |
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| who would woosh down fluffy slopes on a bobsleigh a fortnight | |
| after parturition, or arrive by the Orient Express with five | |
| trunks, Dack’s grandsire, and a maid, to Dr. Stella Ospenko’s | |
| ospedale where he was recovering from a scratch received in a | |
| 252.05 | sword duel (and still visible as a white weal under his eighth |
| rib after a lapse of nearly seventeen years). How strange that | |
| when one met after a long separation a chum or fat aunt whom | |
| one had been fond of as a child the unimpaired human warmth | |
| of the friendship was rediscovered at once, but with an old | |
| 252.10 | mistress this never happened—the human part of one’s affection |
| seemed to be swept away with the dust of the inhuman passion, | |
| in a wholesale operation of demolishment. He looked at her and | |
| acknowledged the perfection of the potage, but she, this rather | |
| thick-set woman, goodhearted, no doubt, but restive and sour- | |
| 252.15 | faced, glazed over, nose, forehead and all, with a sort of brown- |
| ish oil that she considered to be more "juvenizing" than powder, | |
| was more of a stranger to him than Bouteillan who had once | |
| carried her in his arms, in a feigned faint, out of a Ladore villa | |
| and into a cab, after a final, quite final row, on the eve of her | |
| 252.20 | wedding. |
| no such qualms, lacking as she did that third sight (individual, | |
| magically detailed imagination) which many otherwise ordinary | |
| and conformant people may also possess, but without which | |
| 252.25 | memory (even that of a profound "thinker" or technician of |
| genius) is, let us face it, a stereotype or a tear-sheet. We do not | |
| wish to be too hard on Marina; after all, her blood throbs in | |
| our wrists and temples, and many of our megrims are hers, not | |
| his. Yet we cannot condone the grossness of her soul. The man | |
| 252.30 | sitting at the head of the table and joined to her by a pair of |
| cheerful youngsters, the "juvenile" (in movie parlance) on her | |
| right, the "ingénue" on her left, differed in no way from the | |
| same Demon in much the same black jacket (minus perhaps | |
| the carnation he had evidently purloined from a vase Blanche |
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| had been told to bring from the gallery) who sat next to her | |
| at the Praslins' last Christmas. The dizzy chasm he felt every | |
| time he met her, that awful "wonder of life" with its extrava- | |
| gant jumble of geological faults, could not be bridged by what | |
| 253.05 | she accepted as a dotted line of humdrum encounters: "poor |
| old" Demon (all her pillow mates being retired with that title) | |
| appeared before her like a harmless ghost, in the foyers of | |
| theaters "between mirror and fan," or in the drawing rooms of | |
| common friends, or once in Lincoln Park, indicating an indigo- | |
| 253.10 | buttocked ape with his cane and not saluting her, according to |
| the rules of the beau monde, because he was with a courtesan. | |
| Somewhere, further back, much further back, safely trans- | |
| formed by her screen-corrupted mind into a stale melodrama | |
| was her three-year-long period of hectically spaced love-meet- | |
| 253.15 | ings with Demon, A Torrid Affair (the title of her only cin- |
| ema hit), passion in palaces, the palms and larches, his Utter | |
| Devotion, his impossible temper, separations, reconciliations, | |
| Blue Trains, tears, treachery, terror, an insane sister’s threats, | |
| helpless, no doubt, but leaving their tiger-marks on the drapery | |
| 253.20 | of dreams, especially when dampness and dark affect one with |
| fever. And the shadow of retribution on the backwall (with | |
| ridiculous legal innuendos). All this was mere scenery, easily | |
| packed, labeled "Hell" and freighted away; and only very | |
| infrequently some reminder would come—say, in the trick- | |
| 253.25 | work close-up of two left hands belonging to different sexes— |
| doing what? Marina could no longer recall (though only four | |
| years had elapsed!)—playing à quatre mains?—no, neither took | |
| piano lessons—casting bunny-shadows on a wall?—closer, | |
| warmer, but still wrong; measuring something? But what? | |
| 253.30 | Climbing a tree? The polished trunk of a tree? But where, |
| when? Someday, she mused, one’s past must be put in order. | |
| Retouched, retaken. Certain "wipes" and "inserts" will have to | |
| be made in the picture; certain telltale abrasions in the emulsion | |
| will have to be corrected; "dissolves" in the sequence discreetly |
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| combined with the trimming out of unwanted, embarrassing | |
| "footage," and definite guarantees obtained; yes, someday— | |
| before death with its clap-stick closes the scene. | |
| 254.05 | of giving him what she remembered, more or less correctly, |
| when planning the menu, as being his favorite food—zelyonïya | |
| shchi, a velvety green sorrel-and-spinach soup, containing | |
| slippery hard-boiled eggs and served with finger-burning, irre- | |
| sistibly soft, meat-filled or carrot-filled or cabbage-filled pirozhki | |
| 254.10 | —peer-rush-KEY, thus pronounced, thus celebrated here, for |
| ever and ever. After that, she had decided, there would be | |
| bread-crumbed sander (sudak) with boiled potatoes, hazel-hen | |
| (ryabchiki)and that special asparagus (bezukhanka) which does | |
| not produce Proust’s After-effect, as cookbooks say. | |
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| "Marina," he repeated louder. "Far from me" (a locution he | |
| favored) "to criticize Dan’s taste in white wines or the manners | |
| de vos domestiques. You know me, I’m above all that rot, | |
| I’m ..." (gesture); "but, my dear," he continued, switching to | |
| 254.20 | Russian, "the chelovek who brought me the pirozhki—the new |
| man, the plumpish one with the eyes (s glazami)—" | |
| serves. But that’s not the point. He pants, Marina! He suffers | |
| 254.25 | from some kind of odïshka (shortness of breath). He should see |
| Dr. Krolik. It’s depressing. It’s a rhythmic pumping pant. It | |
| made my soup ripple." | |
| as you know quite well, he’s dead, and Marina can’t tell her | |
| 254.30 | servants not to breathe, because, as you also know, they’re |
| alive." | |
| it. Besides poor Jones is not at all asthmatic, but only nervously |
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| eager to please. He’s as healthy as a bull and has rowed me from | |
| Ardisville to Ladore and back, and enjoyed it, many times this | |
| summer. You are cruel, Demon. I can’t tell him 'ne pïkhtite,' as | |
| I can’t tell Kim, the kitchen boy, not to take photographs on | |
| 255.05 | the sly—he’s a regular snap-shooting fiend, that Kim, though |
| otherwise an adorable, gentle, honest boy; nor can I tell my little | |
| French maid to stop getting invitations, as she somehow suc- | |
| ceeds in doing, to the most exclusive bals masquésin Ladore." | |
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| wine do we have—what can you recommend?" The butler | |
| 255.15 | smiled and whispered a fabulous name. |
| think up dinners all by yourself. Now about rowing—you | |
| mentioned rowing ... Do you know that moi, qui vous parle, | |
| was a Rowing Blue in 1858? Van prefers football, but he’s | |
| 255.20 | only a College Blue, aren’t you Van? I’m also better than he at |
| tennis—not lawn tennis, of course, a game for parsons, but | |
| 'court tennis' as they say in Manhattan. What else, Van?" | |
| not real sudak, papa, though it’s tops, I assure you." | |
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| in time for the dinner, had chosen the nearest thing, wall-eyed | |
| pike, or "dory," with Tartar sauce and boiled young pota- | |
| toes.) | |
| 255.30 | Our Lady’s Tears." |
| voice (he labored under the delusion that Marina had grown | |
| rather deaf), "about your husband. My dear, he overdoes the | |
| juniper vodka stuff, he’s getting, in fact, a mite fuzzy and odd. |
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| The other day I chanced to walk through Pat Lane on the | |
| Fourth Avenue side, and there he was coming, at quite a spin, | |
| in his horrid town car, that primordial petrol two-seater he’s | |
| got, with the tiller. Well, he saw me, from quite a distance, and | |
| 256.05 | waved, and the whole contraption began to shake down, and |
| finally stopped half a block away, and there he sat trying to | |
| budge it with little jerks of his haunches, you know, like a | |
| child who can’t get his tricycle unstuck, and as I walked up to | |
| him I had the definite impression that it was his mechanism | |
| 256.10 | that had stalled, not the Hardpan’s." But what Demon, in the |
| goodness of his crooked heart, omitted to tell Marina was that | |
| the imbecile, in secret from his art adviser, Mr. Aix, had acquired | |
| for a few thousand dollars from a gaming friend of Demon’s, | |
| and with Demon’s blessings, a couple of fake Correggios—only | |
| 256.15 | to resell them by some unforgivable fluke to an equally imbecile |
| collector, for half a million which Demon considered hence- | |
| forth as a loan his cousin should certainly refund him if sanity | |
| counted for something on this gemel planet. And, conversely, | |
| Marina refrained from telling Demon about the young hospital | |
| 256.20 | nurse Dan had been monkeying with ever since his last illness |
| (it was, by the way, she, busybody Bess, whom Dan had asked | |
| on a memorable occasion to help him get "something nice for a | |
| half-Russian child interested in biology"). | |
| 256.25 | gundy, "though, pravda, my maternal grandfather would have |
| left the table rather than see me drinking red wine instead of | |
| champagne with gelinotte. Superb, my dear (blowing a kiss | |
| through the vista of flame and silver)." | |
| 256.30 | locally called "mountain grouse") was accompanied by pre- |
| served lingonberries (locally called "mountain cranberries"). | |
| An especially succulent morsel of one of those brown little fowls | |
| yielded a globule of birdshot between Demon’s red tongue and | |
| strong canine: "La fève de Diane," he remarked, placing it |
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| carefully on the edge of his plate. "How is the car situation, | |
| Van?" | |
| delivered before Christmas. I tried to find a Silentium with a | |
| 257.05 | side car and could not, because of the war, though what con- |
| nection exists between wars and motorcycles is a mystery. But | |
| we manage, Ada and I, we manage, we ride, we bike, we even | |
| jikker." | |
| 257.10 | of our great Canadian’s lovely lines about blushing Irène: |
| "All right. You can ship mine to England, provided—" | |
| 257.15 | can I obtain the kind of old roomy limousine with an old pro- |
| fessional chauffeur that Praskovia, for instance, has had for | |
| years?" | |
| what would Ada like, what would my silent love like for her | |
| 257.20 | birthday? It’s next Saturday, po razschyotu po moemu (by my |
| reckoning), isn’t it? Une rivière de diamants?" | |
| I object to your giving her kvaka sesva (quoi que ce soit), Dan | |
| and I will take care of all that." | |
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| showed the tip of her tongue to Van who had been on the | |
| look-out for her conditional reaction to "diamonds." | |
| 257.30 | George’s Garage, Ranta Road." |
| going to have Mascodagama round out his vacation in Paris. | |
| Qui something sur son front, en accuse la beauté!" |
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| gulf of his mind such bright recollections? Who has not | |
| squirmed and covered his face with his hands as the dazzling | |
| past leered at him? Who, in the terror and solitude of a long | |
| 258.05 | night— |
| terrified even more than they did the Antiamberians of Ladore | |
| County. | |
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| sider the billowing drapery, "I’d guess it was a photographer’s | |
| flash. After all, we have here a famous actress and a sensational | |
| acrobat." | |
| 258.15 | a white-faced boy flanked by two gaping handmaids stood |
| aiming a camera at the harmless, gay family group. But it was | |
| only a nocturnal mirage, not unusual in July. Nobody was tak- | |
| ing pictures except Perun, the unmentionable god of thunder. | |
| In expectation of the rumble, Marina started to count under | |
| 258.20 | her breath, as if she were praying or checking the pulse of a |
| very sick person. One heartbeat was supposed to span one mile | |
| of black night between the living heart and a doomed herdsman, | |
| felled somewhere—oh, very far—on the top of a mountain. | |
| The rumble came—but sounded rather subdued. A second | |
| 258.25 | flash revealed the structure of the French window. |
| under her chair and in the course of his brief plunge and ascent | |
| brushed the side of her knee with his temple. | |
| 258.30 | bonasia windriverensis?" asked Ada loftily. |
| his palm on the back of Ada’s hand and asked her to pass him | |
| the oddly evocative object. She did so in a staccato arc. Demon | |
| inserted his monocle and, muffling the tongue of memory, ex- |
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| amined the bell; but it was not the one that had once stood on | |
| a bed-tray in a dim room of Dr. Lapiner’s chalet; was not even | |
| of Swiss make; was merely one of those sweet-sounding transla- | |
| tions which reveal a paraphrast’s crass counterfeit as soon as you | |
| 259.05 | look up the original. |
| it," and after a brief consultation with Bouteillan a somewhat | |
| incongruous but highly palatable bit of saucisson d’Arles added | |
| itself to the young lady’s fare of asperges en branchesthat | |
| 259.10 | everybody was now enjoying. It almost awed one to see the |
| pleasure with which she and Demon distorted their shiny-lipped | |
| mouths in exactly the same way to introduce orally from some | |
| heavenly height the voluptuous ally of the prim lily of the | |
| valley, holding the shaft with an identical bunching of the | |
| 259.15 | fingers, not unlike the reformed "sign of the cross" for protest- |
| ing against which (a ridiculous little schism measuring an inch | |
| or so from thumb to index) so many Russians had been burnt | |
| by other Russians only two centuries earlier on the banks of | |
| the Great Lake of Slaves. Van remembered that his tutor’s | |
| 259.20 | great friend, the learned but prudish Semyon Afanasievich |
| Vengerov, then a young associate professor but already a cele- | |
| brated Pushkinist (1855-1954), used to say that the only vulgar | |
| passage in his author’s work was the cannibal joy of young | |
| gourmets tearing "plump and live" oysters out of their "clois- | |
| 259.25 | ters" in an unfinished canto of Eugene Onegin. But then "every- |
| one has his own taste," as the British writer Richard Leonard | |
| Churchill mistranslates a trite French phrase (chacun à son goût) | |
| twice in the course of his novel about a certain Crimean Khan | |
| once popular with reporters and politicians, "A Great Good | |
| 259.30 | Man"—according, of course, to the cattish and prejudiced |
| Guillaume Monparnasse about whose new celebrity Ada, while | |
| dipping the reversed corolla of one hand in a bowl, was now | |
| telling Demon, who was performing the same rite in the same | |
| graceful fashion. |
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| of Turkish cigarettes tipped with red rose petal and passed the | |
| box on to Demon. Ada, somewhat self-consciously, lit up too. | |
| 260.05 | approves of your smoking at table." |
| prissy on that score." | |
| 260.10 | |
| not of a high order, but still banter. | |
| an Alibi—I mean an Albany—myself." | |
| 260.15 | was! I like a smoke when I go mushrooming, but when I’m back, |
| this horrid tease insists I smell of some romantic Turk or Al- | |
| banian met in the woods." | |
| morals." | |
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| made by their cooks in Gavana before 1700, consists of larger | |
| puffs coated with creamier chocolate than the dark and puny | |
| "profit rolls" served in European restaurants. Our friends had | |
| finished that rich sweetmeat flooded with chocolat-au-lait sauce, | |
| 260.25 | and were ready for some fruit, when Bout followed by his |
| father and floundering Jones made a sensational entry. | |
| seized with borborygmic convulsions. This always signified, and | |
| introduced, a long-distance call. Marina, who had been await- | |
| 260.30 | ing for several days a certain message from California in response |
| to a torrid letter, could now hardly contain her passionate im- | |
| patience and had been on the point of running to the dorophone | |
| in the hall at the first bubbling spasm, when young Bout hur- | |
| ried in dragging the long green cord (visibly palpitating in a |
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| series of swells and contractions rather like a serpent ingesting | |
| a field mouse) of the ornate, brass-and-nacre receiver, which | |
| Marina with a wild "A l’eau!" pressed to her ear. It was, how- | |
| ever, only fussy old Dan ringing her up to inform everybody | |
| 261.05 | that Miller could not make it that night after all and would |
| accompany him to Ardis bright and early on the following | |
| morning. | |
| glutted with family joys and slightly annoyed he had missed | |
| 261.10 | the first half of a gambling night in Ladore for the sake of all |
| that well-meant but not quite first-rate food. | |
| as sadly as if she were evoking a place of dreary exile. "Jones, | |
| please, don’t walk on that phonecord. You have no idea, Demon, | |
| 261.15 | how I dread meeting again, after all those years, that dislikable |
| Norbert von Miller, who has probably become even more ar- | |
| rogant and obsequious, and moreover does not realize, I’m | |
| sure, that Dan’s wife is me. He’s a Baltic Russian" (turning to | |
| Van) "but really echt deutsch, though his mother was born | |
| 261.20 | Ivanov or Romanov, or something, who owned a calico factory |
| in Finland or Denmark. I can’t imagine how he got his barony; | |
| when I knew him twenty years ago he was plain Mr. Miller." | |
| two Millers mixed up. The lawyer who works for Dan is my | |
| 261.25 | old friend Norman Miller of the Fainley, Fehler and Miller law |
| firm and physically bears a striking resemblance to Wilfrid | |
| Laurier. Norbert, on the other hand, has, I remember, a head | |
| like a kegelkugel, lives in Switzerland, knows perfectly well | |
| whom you married and is an unmentionable blackguard." | |
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| Demon got up. | |
| Do tell Dan and Norman I can give them tea-and-cake any time | |
| tomorrow at the Bryant. By the way, how’s Lucette?" |
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| fond, worried mother though, in point of fact, she bore her | |
| daughters even less affection than she had for cute Dack and | |
| pathetic Dan. | |
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| nasty scare. But now, apparently—" | |
| but I did have gloves. Ask Bouteillan to look in the gallery, I | |
| may have dropped them there. No. Stay! It’s all right. I left | |
| 262.10 | them in the car, because I recall the cold of this flower, which I |
| took from a vase in passing ..." | |
| fugitive urge to plunge both hands in a soft bosom. | |
| 262.15 | one way or another). "What is your room number at the hotel |
| —not 222 by any chance?" | |
| on his key: 221—which was good enough, fatidically and anec- | |
| dotically speaking. Naughty Ada, of course, stole a glance at | |
| 262.20 | Van, who tensed up the wings of his nose in a grimace that |
| mimicked the slant of Pedro’s narrow, beautiful nostrils. | |
| out coquetry, and in the Russian manner kissed her guest on | |
| his inclined brow as he lifted her hand to his lips: "You’ll for- | |
| 262.25 | give me," she added, "for not going out on the terrace, I’ve |
| grown allergic to damp and darkness; I’m sure my temperature | |
| has already gone up to thirty-seven and seven, at least." | |
| tapped too often to react in any intelligible way and remained | |
| 262.30 | standing at a quarter past three. |
| dripping with what Ladore farmers called green rain. Demon’s | |
| black sedan glinted elegantly among the varnished laurels in | |
| the moth-flaked porchlight. He tenderly kissed the children, |
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| the girl on one cheek, the boy on the other, then Ada again—in | |
| the hollow of the white arm that clasped his neck. Nobody paid | |
| much attention to Marina, who waved from a tangelo-colored | |
| oriel window a spangled shawl although all she could see was | |
| 263.05 | the sheen of the car’s bonnet and the rain slanting in the light |
| of its lamps. | |
| of damp gravel. | |
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| ing, they embraced in the dark as they skirted the wing of the | |
| house. | |
| tree, where many a cigar-smoking guest had stopped after | |
| 263.15 | dinner. Tranquilly, innocently, side by side in their separately |
| ordained attitudes, they added a trickle and a gush to the more | |
| professional sounds of the rain in the night, and then lingered, | |
| hand in hand, in a corner of the latticed gallery waiting for the | |
| lights in the windows to go out. | |
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| ing?" asked Van softly. "You noticed?" | |
| crazy, and with no place or occupation in life, and far from | |
| happy, and philosophically irresponsible—and there is absolutely | |
| 263.25 | nobody like him." |
| everything we said was fal’shivo. I wonder if some inner nose | |
| in him smelled you in me, and me in you. He tried to ask me ... | |
| Oh it was not a nice family reunion. What exactly went wrong | |
| 263.30 | at dinner?" |
| perhaps, to wear our masks always, till dee do us part, but we | |
| shall never be able to marry—while they’re both alive. We | |
| simply can’t swing it, because he’s more conventional in his own |
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| way than even the law and the social lice. One can’t bribe one’s | |
| parents, and waiting forty, fifty years for them to die is too | |
| horrible to imagine—I mean the mere thought of anybody | |
| waiting for such a thing is not in our nature, is mean and | |
| 264.05 | monstrous!" |
| defined moments of depth to distinguish them from the despair | |
| of passion. | |
| 264.10 | alien country. Marina has gone upstairs. Your hair is wet." |
| of Terra? Oh, you do! You accept it. I know you!" | |
| thing." | |
| 264.15 | |
| however, was beginning to catch fire. | |
| performance. You will sit as you did four years ago, at the same | |
| 264.20 | table, in the same light, drawing the same flower, and I shall go |
| through the same scene with such joy, such pride, such—I don’t | |
| know—gratitude! Look, all the windows are dark now. I, too, | |
| can translate when I simply have to. Listen to this: | |
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| doesn’t it? That’s a terrible little poem by Konstantin Romanov, | |
| 264.30 | right? Just elected president of the Lyascan Academy of Liter- |
| ature, right? Wretched poet and happy husband. Happy | |
| husband!" |
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| something underneath on formal occasions." | |
| was a family affair." | |
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| jealousy on my part. Memoirs of a Happy Chair. Oh, my | |
| darling." | |
| Croquet room? Ou comme ça?" | |
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